I’m definitely not always a positive person, especially where my blog is concerned. To be honest I often wonder how I got this far and yet here I am, still going, plodding along and struggling to get by with my tiny little piece of the blogging pie that is The Tattooed Book Geek.
Yeah, you know it. It’s the blog that you are currently reading. The one that is run by that euphemism rocking, foul-mouthed and sarcastic bad influence or delicate, sweet, unassuming and blossoming flower. Really, it’s subjective and depends on who you ask!😱😂😝📚
So, folks. Is Drew a euphemism rocking, foul-mouthed and sarcastic bad influence or is Drew really just a delicate, sweet, unassuming and blossoming flower?🤔 Answers at the end of the post.😝
Anyhow, I often struggle with the quality of my posts, or, at least, my perceived lack of where I think that everything that I post is shit. My stats suck but even if they were fantastically high and everyone told me that my post was great there would still be that one person who thinks it isn’t, yeah, you guessed it, me and that voice in my head, that little niggle of doubt that whispers (shit, shit, shit).
It’s very rare that I look at a post I’ve written and think ‘yeah, this is good‘ very very rare. I have a few posts that are funny, some hilariously so but there’s a difference between being ‘funny‘ and actually being ‘good‘.
My Reasons why a blogger declines your review request and doesn’t want you on their blog post is one and I know it’s good verging on great. Granted, if it had been on another person’s blog then the stats would have been epic (it’s also the post I was called a bad blogging influence over, yeah, hashtag, suck it) and really, it’s a post all authors should read, share and follow.
My Some musings on paid for book reviews is also another good post, I think that I came up with many valid reasons why it isn’t feasible but again, the stats and interaction sucked and I know that if it had been on another more respected and popular blog then the stats would have killed as it’s a hot topic yet because I’m only small, unpopular and lack a reputation (other than a bad one) the relevance and quality of the post didn’t matter as I’m unknown and the post went under the water.
Likewise, I wrote a post on pirating books recently called Venting: Pirating books is wrong. Yes, I admit that it was rather a rant and had some foul language (it’s 2018 it shouldn’t be an issue) but the sentiments were correct and honest and really, pirating is wrong so there was no need for the post to be polite. It’s a subject that you would think everyone could get behind even if they perhaps didn’t like the tone of the post alas, no, interaction, views and shares sucked for it. Surely, with something like a post on pirating it should fly as we should all stand together and say no to it. Was my post bad or was it down to the fact that I am a no-name blogger?? Sure, I could have been polite but that isn’t me or how I write posts yet I can’t help but think that if I was a player in the blogging game and community with a respected voice that people would have applauded and agreed with me yet because I’m me, a nobody, many people didn’t.
It’s not envy, it’s just how it is and it’s not about the stats either it is simply that what would do well on another blog doesn’t do well on your own and it sucks as you know you have delivered quality content and it isn’t given the chance.
For reviews, I’d tell you that all of mine are crap compared to others as I know that I write in an informal way, repeat myself and definitely lacking in the professionalism department.
Every time I read other bloggers reviews (especially for a book I’ve reviewed) I think that mine pale in comparison and wonder what is the point when so many others can word their thoughts far better than I possibly can.
Thinking about it there’s only one review that I’ve posted this year where I can look at it and say ‘yeah, this is good’ and that’s my Ravencry (The Raven’s Mark #2) by Ed McDonald review. When I read it I can honestly say that it is just as good as any review written by any other reviewer (different in style, obviously, but just as good) even those that you would find on any of the huge, popular and respected fantasy sites.
My point is, I occasionally/often find blogging hard in the sense that I doubt what I write, it can be a struggle to press that publish button and I’m sure that I’m not alone in feeling that way?!?!🤔
I’ve said that I think that everything that I write is crap and it’s true, I do but that doesn’t mean that I don’t put effort into what I post as honestly, I do. I try and put out the best post or review that I can. I might think it’s crap, you might read it and think it’s crap but I assure you that there is time and effort gone into it and that I have made it the best I possibly can.
It sucks to feel this way, really it does. It’d be great to be able to write a review or post in a matter of minutes, read through, think ‘yeah, this is great‘, schedule and post it and go away onto other things but that isn’t me. Self-doubt people, it’s a fucker!
The sad thing is that I (probably) have lots of decent reviews and posts on my blog but it hard to see them when you doubt yourself. 😦
One thing that I’ve learnt from doubting the quality of my posts is that it shows that I care. Please don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying that those of you who write a blog post and post it straight away with minimal hassle and no self-doubt don’t care, far from it. I offer you the highest of fives and my praise that you have that self-belief that enables you to do it and I wish that I could.
All I’m saying is that for those of us who do doubt the quality of what we post and write that it means that we often struggle and find blogging hard (you may not see it but it’s there, hidden, lurking in the background behind our posts) and that while it is negative to feel that way there is also a positive side too.
That positive side is that for those of us who do struggle it shows that we care about our posts and our content.
We might not have the best blog posts or reviews, the most eloquent, the wordiest, the most fun, the most serious or the most debatable with the hot topics but we care, we have put out the best that we can and for us that is enough.👍📚
Another thing that I often feel is that my blog and my voice is irrelevant. I’m only a small blog, I don’t really want to be a big blog, I’m generally happy just being me. I’m not gonna lie and say that, at times (yeah, I know, stats aren’t important) that I wouldn’t love to have a popular post and see my stats skyrocket even if only once.
Likewise, I’m not gonna lie and say that it isn’t disappointing when a post that I hope will do well, doesn’t as honestly, it sucks balls. I’m sure that is something that we have all had happen to us blog posts that do better (which is always a nice surprise) than we thought they would do and blog posts that do worse than we hoped, which as I mentioned, sucks great big, hairy and salty balls.
Expectations, people, expectations, the bane of life, when they are met, it’s a great feeling and when they aren’t, you feel like shit.
Anyhow, back on track. I know my place, I’m a loner on the outskirts, a little blog, a non-entity, a nobody who wouldn’t be missed. But! That doesn’t mean that my blog and my voice don’t matter, they do. Even if it is only to me or the one or two people who read my blog my opinion, my voice and my posts matters.
We can’t all be big, popular, well-known, well respected or one of the cool and hip new blogs that everyone is talking about. No, there are those of us, like me, who will always fly under the radar and you know what my friends?!?
That’s OK, it’s fine and as long as you are happy with your blog that is all that truly matters and it is enough just being you.
So, to all those who doubt themselves, their blogs and who fly under the radar please realise and remember this…..your opinion and view is just as important and just as valid as others and that you and your blog matter.👍📚