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Where I’ve Been.

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I’m not sure anyone will remember me as I’ve been a negligent blogger. If I classed my blog as my baby then I’d have been a bad blogging daddy.πŸ˜‚πŸ˜œ My blog (and SM which has also been deathly silent) has been dormant for well over a month, cast aside, forgotten, consigned to the blogging scrapyard and buried in the grave of abandoned blogs. But, I’ve raised my hand above the ground, dug up the coffin, unearthed the withered corpse within, dusted the cobwebs off and if anyone is still around then hello, how’s it going? Read any good books? Read any terrible books? Have I missed any drama?

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At the end of January, I took a break from reading, burnout, a slump, whatever term you want to call it and I just didn’t feel like picking up a book and reading. I won’t rehash my words regarding the topic as I already wrote a blog post on it called ‘It’s OK to take a break‘ and, it is.πŸ‘ For anything in your life and for whatever reason it is OK to take a break. Then, a couple of days after posting I decided that while I was on a break from reading that I didn’t just want a break from reading (to be honest, I didn’t want a break from reading at all as I love reading and it was strange not to have any inclination to read). But, that I wanted, well, needed a break from blogging (my own blog and reading other blogs) as I had no inclination to blog and from SM too. So, I stepped back and went dark. Some might say that they took a hiatus. Me, I’ll just put it bluntly and say that you can be laughing (or being your usual sarcastic ass self – that’s me) on the outside while you are struggling on the inside and something had to give. I had no mental energy for living. Life can be hard when you have darkness within that follows you, that walks by your side and so, I fucked off as I needed some time to myself.πŸ˜‚πŸ˜œ

So, here I am six weeks later with a ramble. I struggle to find words when writing a review. When rambling I go on and on, succinct I am not. You’ll have to excuse me, I am old, old people ramble, it is what it is.πŸ˜‚πŸ˜œ

My time away has been my first real break, bar a few days here and there in four years of blogging. I actually missed my four year blogging anniversary which was on March 5th. So, to everyone who has ever liked, commented on, retweeted, shared, visited, viewed, followed (both my blog and SM accounts) and read my blog, thank you for being on this journey with me and for the support that you have shown me and my blog over the last four years.πŸ‘πŸ˜ƒπŸ“š

I’d also like to thank those few people who checked up on me during my time away. It’s easy to be forgotten when you aren’t posting. But, surprisingly a few people noticed my absence, it is nice to know you are missed and that some people care enough to check-in. To those who bothered and you know who you are, I really appreciate it, thank you.πŸ˜ƒ

In the four years I’ve been blogging I have seen many bloggers come and go, many who were far better than me and who have left an imprint upon the blogging community. Whereas I am just a nobody who happens to have a blog.

I’ve been committed (not in that way though I am rather weird) and put a lot of effort into my blog since I started it and over the last year or so I really feel like it has gone backwards. The number of likes, comments, interaction and views are all generally less than they were and it sucks to see something that you have tried to build faltering and flatlining. Sure, stats (I’m not gonna lie though that getting 1,000 instead of 50 views continually on reviews would be awesome) aren’t really important, blogging isn’t a popularity contest and you should blog for yourself. But, at the same time stats aren’t a dirty word (if you are looking for a dirty word might I suggest cunt, the response that using that word gets when you throw it out there makes its usage both worthwhile and amusing. Or, if you don’t want to be vulgar, want to keep it PG and YA then, I suggest either dirt or filth, those two words by there very definition are dirty) and there is nothing wrong in wanting your posts (that you have put thought, time and effort into) to do well and to reach as many people as possible. Honestly, at times reviewing seems like a lot of effort just to talk to myself. I already do that anyway and I can make far more innuendos and swear far more talking to myself too.πŸ˜‚

There will always be someone with a bigger following, who writes better reviews and who is more liked, popular and respected than you. Likewise, there will always be some cool new kid on the blogging block that everyone loves and is around everywhere before they are yesterday’s news and replaced by yet another cool new blogger. Yes, we shouldn’t compare ourselves to others as we are all different and I know that. I still do it though and I always find myself lacking. It is imposter syndrome and it’s not that I’m bothered by what other people do, they can do whatever they want (though, it is probably best if they don’t ‘do’ animals as there is a law against that. Diddling a doggo, that’s a no-no, humping a hippo, that’s a no-no, ramming a rhino, that’s a no-no, licking a llama, that’s a no-no, gobbling a goose, that’s a no-no, sucking a sloth, that’s a no-no, you get the picture, doing animals is wrong). But, the incessant feeling that I’m not good enough to be a blogger, that I don’t fit in, that blogging is a lonely place and that I have failed to make many who I can class as friends in the community, that no-one cares about what I have to say about books (because sometimes it really feels that way. That unless you contribute to one of the huge blogs/websites or, are mega-popular and respected that your opinion on a book is irrelevant), that I don’t comment enough (I hardly do nowadays which, I guess means, according to most that I’m not really a blogger cos blogging is supposedly all about interacting), that I don’t read enough blogs, that I don’t read enough books and that my reviews aren’t good enough. All little things. But, little things that niggle and can fester.

Side note: I’m not even going to mention the constant blogger bashing that seems to occur over bloggers not being ‘real‘ readers. Honestly, that shit shouldn’t bother me, you or anyone with a blog as it is a big steaming pile of sloppy and stinking BS. But, for many it does and it makes you question the point of having a blog if bloggers are held in such low regards by people.

On the flip side to all the negativity I also think that I’ve accomplished quite a lot with blogging, far more than I ever imagined and especially for a small blogger too. I’ve been quoted on press releases, on the Amazon page of books, in books and on the back cover of a few books too. Never a hardback that won’t happen and never on the front cover either, again, that won’t happen. But, like most others, I don’t do this for any recognition (is being recognised for having a blog even a thing? I mean, sure, politeness and a little acknowledgement is always nice but, recognition, nah, I can’t really see it. Though there are probably those who think that they are famous and deserve recognition), it’s all about the book love and I haven’t done too badly for a little unknown blog and someone who doubts everything that they write.

Which brings me (belatedly cos, I had a little tangent, remember where I said that I’m old and I ramble) to the self-doubt related to blogging and the constant doubting over whether my reviews are good enough. Honestly, it is draining and it eats away at me. How I envy those who write, publish and think that what they have written is amazing without doubting a single word! Me?! I doubt the quality, if I have written enough, if I have gone into enough detail, the grammar, the reused words, the same phrases that I repeat over and over again and the reviews themselves that all sound the same just with a different title of the book and author name. Taking a step back this last month, writing no reviews and having a break from the doubt was nice. Sadly, my self-doubt isn’t only related to my blog and it is a burden that I carry in every aspect of my life, daily and that has still been in full force. Maybe one day I won’t feel worthless.😒

I’m not sure I’m the same person as when I started blogging or, maybe I am and that’s the problem, I don’t know. I’m still broken, I know that and I have been for many years. I always will be, some days I’m just better at hiding it than others. Four years ago I jumped into blogging simply for something to do a couple of weeks after I had to have my dog put to sleep (to this day I still miss my dog and I always will, we don’t deserve dogs, they are more than animals, they are the best of us). Surprisingly, I enjoyed it far more than I thought that I would, stuck with it and it quickly turned from ‘something to do‘ to ‘something that I enjoyed‘. But, that was a long time ago and though it has taken years over the last few months I’ve found the enjoyment slipping and blogging itself to be more like a chore than a hobby. However, that might not necessarily be down solely to my blog. It could also be down to the fact that I have grown tired of the darkness, of the dark clouds that seem to gather and of the demons that follow me around. I have to admit that since the beginning of the year I’ve been struggling with life, going through the motions, feeling numb and battling to keep the dark thoughts at bay. I’ve written before about depression and dark days and sometimes, the mask slips and the darkness inside is there for all to see.

I’ve been contemplating what to do with my blog these last few weeks and whether or not to carry on or quit, turn and walk away. Honestly, I haven’t really known which way the cards would fall and if I’d become another fallen blogger or not. It is hard to look to the future when you don’t want to be there. If I’m being brutally honest, I have enjoyed my break away perhaps a bit too much. But, looking at it, if I’m reading a book then I might as well knock out a few words afterwards and if I’m doing that then I might as well do it in a place that is my own (my little blog) and not just Amazon and Goodreads. So, I finally came to the decision that my blog will continue.

However, I won’t be posting anywhere near as much as I have done in previous years. I’ve never been the most prolific poster. But, I have managed to amass over 1,100 posts in the four years that I’ve been blogging. Going forward, I’ll probably be what is classed as a part-time blogger (yeah, I can see those who say that you need to post consistently and post daily to be a blogger shaking their head and saying I’m not a dedicated blogger). There will be weekly Music Monday posts (those bad boys are drafted up well in advance), a review (maybe even reviews, plural on some weeks and, on other weeks no review), the occasional book haul post (they usually appear when I have enough books to constitute a haul so, every month or, every couple of months books depending) and if the mood takes me, then maybe a meme, a tag or a personal post will feature once in a blue moon too. But, to begin with, I just want to focus on dipping my feet back into the sordid and debauched world of blogging. Hell, in the future I might even have an author appear, who knows. Though honestly, I got tired of featuring authors as they just drop and run and only come sniffing around when they have a book to pimp. Which, yeah, it is to be expected. But still, it often feels like there is no sense of gratitude for having them appear and some come across as entitled, like they are doing you the favour and like it is expected of you to accommodate them just because you have a blog…it’s not. Authors and bloggers work best together when both realise that it is a symbiotic relationship, mutually beneficial and better together than apart. Or, better together than when either party is acting entitled and like a twat.

I think that things can hit you hard simply because you care and, sad as it sounds I care about my blog. For a long time I loved having a blog, I enjoyed blogging and I’m hoping that I can find that feeling again. As of the weekend, I’m back to reading (finally) albeit slowly and not always daily (I flew through The Memory Wood by Sam Lloyd on Sunday and Monday, absolutely brilliant book, review to come next week. But, since then I’ve been floundering over my next book as the Coronavirus is worrying me – not to bothered for myself though I’d rather not get ill. But, I’m worried for my mother who is high-risk and vulnerable as she is getting on in years and has a very weak immune system) which for a slow reader means glacial and, with this post, I’m back to blogging too.

So, yeah, if anyone got this far the short of it is that my blog isn’t dead yet and I’m sticking around.

111 thoughts on “Where I’ve Been.

  1. ‘my blog isn’t dead yet and I’m sticking around.’ Delighted to hear it. Come and go as you please, but never think that just because I’m silent it doesn’t mean I haven’t noticed or cared x

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  2. Sorry to hear you were in a bad place. I’m fortunate that I don’t give a toss about stats, if I did I would be a crying mess most days as mine are shockingly bad ha ha. I hope you get the fun back and I for one missed your blog posts as I’m sure did many others.

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  3. Welcome back! Still can’t believe you’ve only been blogging 4 years; I’ve been blogging the same amount of time but in my head, you’re a much more established blogger than me! A familiar name in the book blogging community, if you like. πŸ™‚

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  4. So glad to see you back Drew, you’ve been missed. As someone full of self doubt (and currently having counselling for it) about my ability to do anything, I totally get that bit. Please know you’re a valued member of the blogging community, your posts are great and I’m really glad you’re sticking around. Holler if there is anything I can do. x

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  5. Welcome back Drew! Glad to hear you are sticking around. Blog when you feel like it. I know I feel guilty when I don’t post. Why is that? It’s my blog, Damn it!! πŸ˜‚ I also hate that I check my stats!!! Why can’t we just enjoy bloggjng? Why is there so much pressure?πŸ’œStay strong!!

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  6. I certainly can’t speak for all authors, but I am sorry that many of them leave a sense of ungratitude behind. I’m certainly guilty of not commenting as much as I read (and I know how that goes having a generally deathly silent blog as far as commenting goes).

    In any case, I’m glad you’ve taken time to take care of yourself and come to a decision of what’s best for you.

    It can be as hard to step away from a blistering pace as it is to maintain, as I have also learned this year.

    Keep doing what works for you and take care of yourself.

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  7. Glad you’re back and have decided to stick around too πŸ™‚
    Belated happy blogiversary for the 5th too.
    I take breaks from reviewing books every now and then simply for the pleasure of reading a book without the niggling thought of “what the heck am I going to say about this?!” at the back of my head. It usually helps a little.

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  8. It’s awesome to be reading your words again. Welcome back!
    We’re all here waiting any time you write. I agree that sometimes taking a break is totally needed. If you’re not enjoying it, no need to force it, you know?
    I really look up to you for being so honest about the depression.

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  9. Welcome back Drew!

    I don’t chase numbers and therefore have few, but over the years I seem to have garnered a loyal, albeit small followers list.

    My reviews are pretty short. I often say I give the flavour of a book…about 200 words. And I only blog once a week. It suits me best, and that’s what you should do, suit yourself.

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  10. Sorry you’ve not been in a good place, it’s great to have you back. You do what you want to do and that’s all that matters. I’d say I’m a part time blogger and I’m fine with that. I work and have 2 boys so definitely not enough time to blog daily. Sending hugs xx

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  11. Welcome back, bud. I was wondering where you’d got to. I’ve been slack lately too due to time constraints. Hope to get back on the bandwagon soon. Also, I would class myself as a blogging zygote, even though it’s lacks alliteration.

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  12. Welcome back Drew, I only blog 2-3 times a week these days, this week I’m only posting once, I’m much more laid back about my blog these days. Sometimes I even read books that I don’t write a review for (from my own TBR pile) and just leave a couple of sentences on goodreads/Amazon. If anything the less I post the more visits I get to my page when I post a review πŸ˜‚. You have to do what’s right for you, I take my hats off to bloggers who post every day, for me the slower pace works just fine and if I want to take a week/s off at a time I do

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  13. I was on a month long break as well so did miss a lot and now as I have returened it is just Corona this and Corona that… Glad you are still around as your posts is what I look up to and have been doing in my nearly 3 years of blogging. (anniversary coming up in the next week as well…). Just take care of yourself first that is nr 1. Hope you have a good day.

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      1. We have just gotten word from management at the zoo we work that they will be on a sort of lockdown for the coming few weeks. Means that we will probly not be working as much, which means our budgets just got a whole lot tighter…

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  14. Ah Drew, I went through the same thing, but mine lasted for most of 2019. I know exactly how you’re feeling right now. Even though I wasn’t blogging, or reading, and I wasn’t sure I’d ever want to come back I still paid my WordPress premium fees. Know why? Because I couldn’t bear to let it go. I love our little spaces, and even if we can only write a little, it still means a lot.

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  15. Welcome back, Drew. I hope that you start to enjoy reading and blogging again.

    I often wonder why I bother with blogging, but you’re right – it’s because I care about the little corner of the internet that I’ve carved out for myself. And caring about something you’ve created, put time and effort into is no bad thing.

    Take care, enjoy it, and take as many breaks as you need.

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  16. Jeez, I just thought I wasn’t seeing your posts on Twitter! (That happens, algorithms can be weird.) But I have to say, about a half a year ago I was going through this whole dilemma myself, and it took me longer than a month or two to figure out. Not sure if I have it figured out completely, but I went through a lot of the stuff you write about here – I think it’s a natural barrier we hit when we reach 3-4 blogging years? Yeah, my views have gone down awfully as well, but like you said – I don’t blog hop anymore (I mean I ain’t getting any younger, and as I get older, time somehow just.. melts away? It’s like the days are getting shorter or something.) And I’ve come to most of the same conclusions as you – I’m just going to do as much as I want, and no more. The blog is about my relationship with books – not numbers, not promotions or popularity. And you know… It was really hard going through that period which took maybe even a half a year for me. But I’m glad I never dropped the blog. I’m glad I still have it – smaller, less popular and all that. But I’m still here and I do like what I have. I’m glad I didn’t drop it. And I think I even feel comfortable with it again. So I hope you can feel like that too πŸ™‚ glad to hear you’re going to stay.

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    1. Thank you.πŸ‘πŸ“š Not sure I’ve got it figured out yet to be honest, a little, enough to come back but everything isn’t sorted and with how the world currently is my blog will probably be sporadic at best. But, part of me missed it, even with the issues and hopefully I’ll learn to be comfortable with it and enjoy it again.

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      1. It’s a process. And I also still post very rarely! (Sometimes only once or twice a month – old me would have shuddered, lol.) But it’s what’s comfortable now! It’s about finding a rhythm I guess. So I hope you find yours πŸ™‚

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  17. Hey Drew, I don’t comment but I do follow and read, (just through a feed reader). I have been thinking a lot about stats as I watch my blog struggle for views over the past year and I do wonder how much feed readers effect that. I often forget to open the posts into a new window and comment on them or like them. I tend to do that all(except comment) through my feed reader which doesn’t help when you are looking at your monthly stats. I’m glad you are back I missed your voice!

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  18. I like the things that you post. Even some of the more rambly ones. Pretty much I just blog to connect with people, occasionally see what I should be reading. Yeah, it’d be nice to have more views, but it’s not about that. But no one’s ever going to be more well liked than you, man.

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  19. I’ve missed your funny reviews and posts, but I’m glad you took a step back for your own sake. You come first and if you’re not in the headspace for blogging/reading then that’s nothing to worry about! We all need a break. I’m glad to hear that you are sticking around though 😊 I do enjoy reading your posts a lot! Try to enjoy the more relaxed pace if you can!

    Ps. We all self-doubt, you’re not alone there!

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  20. Well, I have been gone for quite some time. I have quite a deal of ”things”, shall I say, going on in the old headroom, and I felt it necessary to not ”infect” others with my vicious remarks about the.goings on in my life.
    Ss far as blogger negativity goes, I am 44, I really don’t care what people think. It’s my space. You.should feel the same.

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  21. Way to put into words how so many bloggers feel. As I was reading your words about stats and numbers and writing for yourself and yet still feeling like it wasn’t “enough”, I knew how you felt.

    I don’t want to preach, but your statements about feeling worthless were heartfelt enough that it seems appropriate. God loved you so much that He sent His only son Jesus to die for you. Jesus died and then conquered death just for you. He did it for you Drew. You have worth and while you may be broken, you are NOT worthless.

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    1. Thank you for your words, I appreciate them.πŸ‘

      Yes, many feel the same way and the whole writing for yourself and it still not being enough is the worst bit. For me, the numbers, views, etc wouldn’t matter if I could just feel that it was all enough and not doubt the things that I write.

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  22. Welcome back! And a belated happy blogversary!
    We all share the same doubts and uncertainties you listed – each in their own way – and to be saddled with them is not such an exceptional condition. It’s just part of being human.
    From my point of view, good stats and likes can act as a positive reinforcement, granted, but what I truly enjoy from my blogging activities is the sense of community, of sharing thoughts with like-minded people who understand, beyond the need for words, what it means to love and enjoy books.
    And it can be more than enough, especially in these difficult times in which we fear for the health of people we love, besides our own.
    Hang in there! We can make it though πŸ‘

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  23. Glad to hear you are sticking with it Drew. Whether you have written twenty words or two hundred about a book, you care enough to write something and that is always good enough.

    I think a lot of us feel very similar to you, doubt what we do is appreciated, liked, valued, read … I hate my reviews, always feel they are the same things rehashed with just the character names changed. So I try not to think about them. I’m pretty sure I’m talking to myself all the time and it does get to you. And it is easy to feel very much left in the outside of the community if you don’t spend all day everyday commenting liking and interacting. But I’ve learned very clearly that as long as the posts keep going up, Boone eve bothers to ask why you are so quiet. Sometimes even the Seemingly most confident of people don’t have the heart to go on.

    Blog as often or as little as you need to and just keep being you for you. That is more than enough chuck. Take care:

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  24. I’m so glad you’re sticking around. I only came to your blog about a year ago but I always look forward to reading your views on whatever it is you’ve read (and odd glances into things going on in your life). Thank you for sharing , and I hope that things look up for you. πŸ™‚

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  25. Glad to see you back, Drew. You were missed! Sorry you’ve been having a rough go of it. If it makes you feel better, we all have self-doubts and get burn out now and then. I think out of all the reviews I’ve written there are only three or four that I’m really proud of, but we’re also all our own worst critics. Also, stats. I don’t know why no one ever wants to talk about them! Mine have dropped off significantly this year and late last year although I had one good month in there and thought things were on the upswing–apparently not. But then I realize a lot of people I normally interact with or who follow my blog are on hiatus or scaling back. (Back to that burnout thing–it’s real for a lot of bloggers!) It’s like you’re constantly having to chase an audience these days. Sometimes it feels good and sometimes it feels like swimming upstream. So I’ve been trying not to look at my stats lately for that reason. Anyway. Looking forward to seeing your posts again!

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  26. Happy blogoversary and welcome back “into the sordid and debauched world of blogging” πŸ˜€ I’m sure everyone here can find a good place for themselves, and it looks like often we are our own worst enemies, expecting more and more of ourselves and losing from sight the simple fact that blogs serve our needs and pleasures, and not the other way round πŸ™‚
    Good to have you back, Drew!

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  27. Welcome back Drew! Sorry you were going through a tough time. I hope you are feeling better.

    You always say your stats stink- but you consistently get more likes and comments then any other blogger I know. I don’t know what your actual stats are but I imagine they are significantly better than most. What the hell blogs are you following that get more?!

    And happy belated blogiversary. Four years is huge in the internet world.

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    1. Thank you and thank you, I am. I generally always seem to be battling with my demons but, I’m usually on the winning side. Just needed some time away as they were dragging me down recently.

      They do stink!πŸ˜‚ I think so anyway but, it is more to do with writing a review, thinking that it is really good and that you are pleased with it, etc and then, you think that because you think it is great that you will check the stats and you see that it has tanked and then, that really makes you doubt your writing. At least, it does with me.πŸ‘

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      1. I think all reviews tank in stats. I figure there are two reasons- people are careful about spoiling themselves or setting expectations, or it’s a book they simply aren’t interested in. That and reviews tend to be longer posts, and not all of us have the best attention spans. Certainly not me. πŸ˜‚

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  28. I’m glad your blog isn’t dead yet and you’re sticking around. I’m glad you’re back, even if it’s on and off but still glad to see you here.
    The Coronavirus is a big worry yes. I have a weak immune system as well so that sucks. I hope it doesn’t reach to where you are. As they say, avoid social interaction (my ideal life) and wash hands often.

    Dark days and darkness can drag on at your heels even at times when you thought you were stronger. I’m being reminded of that a lot. So far, still in the fight. Hang in there, kick Darkness’s ass and take its name lol. (I seriously don’t get the saying kick ass, take names – I get the kick ass part but why take names?)

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    1. Thank you.πŸ‘πŸ“š

      You knew I’d be sticking around anyway as I’d mentioned that I most likely would be. The post itself just took around 2,500 words to get to that point cos I ramble.πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚

      I think it will, it is in the East Midlands and in the county where I live but, as of yet (unless it hasn’t been reported) it isn’t in my small town but, it is probably only a matter of time.

      Sadly, I can’t avoid social interaction, well, I can, I have no social life but, sadly, I only work in a supermarket and even with the apocalypse and rapture taking place I’m still expected to go in. Though, I really don’t want to be there, was seriously considering just walking out and even quiting to be honest as I’d rather have my state of mind being better and my health and safety than the BS of work.

      It can, you think that you are strong and then, something comes along, ramps up the darkness and proves you otherwise.

      As far as I’m aware the taking names bit means that you are taking the name of the person/thing whose ass you want to but haven’t yet kicked. Sort of like putting it/them on notice or, on a list that you want to kick their ass.πŸ‘

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      1. Wow, this is the first time you’ve said as many words to me lol. Yeah, I knew you’d be around but it’s good to see you posting. You’re one of my few good friends & I definitely don’t want to lose you.

        Oh, man, I hear you. My work became a prison too and this new venture is super risky but I had to give it a try. The world is getting scarier and scarier. I hope you find a better solution to your work situation. Are there any online jobs you can try out for?

        Uh, I still think the taking names part is weird. πŸ˜€

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      2. Doubtful, small town, not many jobs, lack of qualifications, not many jobs, pretty much screwed. Might move to Canada too.πŸ˜‚πŸ˜œ

        It is but, it is what it is with the taking names part, the kicking ass bit is far better anyway.πŸ˜‚

        Lol, yeah, I guess that I do only write short comments a lot of the time. I often struggle with stuff like that and don’t know what to say, sorry.

        Ah, you won’t lose me nomad, you’re stuck with me.😜

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  29. Oh why do we put these pressures on ourselves! I always like reading your posts, Drew. I know I haven’t been following you for long but I liked that your voice was different. I started blogging as a fun hobby, it’s still only a hobby but I put my reviews out there because I didn’t find anyone else my age talking about the genres I like reading. I know my blog will never attract 1000s followers – but that’s OK. You should post what you want, when you want. This follower will still take time out of my menopausal life to read it. 😘

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  30. So glad that you have decided to continue. I suffer with lots of things too and I always worry I’m not good enough – at everything. Thank you for sharing your story, hopefully it has helped you x

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